Well hello to all the people that are passin by my blog! Which, it isn't a lot but hey i'll take what i can get. Wow, the last time i blogged it was about my trip to Greece and me and Rob had just started dating. A lot has changed since then, so let me fill you in.

A lot of this surfaced up about the Greece trip and what happened behind my back, so i had to turn my back from Mitch. We are no longer friends and i haven't spoken to him since we've gotten back from the cruise. He made me a promise and he didn't keep it and he knew the consequences, and i just followed through with them. Yes, we were close, but when i arrived here, he was different, he took me for granted and treated me like i was a tag-a-long. I don't put up with that kind of behavior. Jenn talks to him. Soon after the cruise, he met someone and they got married recently. And that was that.

 In about August, Rob broke up with me. His reason was that he was f'ed up about his separation and everything. But, he wasn't ready to get into a serious realtionship with me or anyone else.I knew it since he was always so closed off with me, but i really liked him. So ya know what i did that night! I called Roland! For the first time in about FOREVER! I took some time away from him to get rid of my feelings for him. I called him so drunk and i was crying and well, it wasn't good at all. AND to top it all off, he was in the states. When he came back we hung out for the first time in about 6 months and then i found out he started dating someone else. Which i was fine with, i was just so estatic that i had him back in my life. He didn't tell me this until later, but he actually said that he missed me and i never thought that he would. I stopped talking to Rob for a bout a month. It was easier to transistion from being his girlfriend to just his friend considering we had been friends for a long time before we started dating. If you want to know more about how my relationship with Rob went, most of it is on myspace. Me and Roland are really really good friends now, however, there are still some feelings there on both our parts. But because he's leaving, i don't think that he will allow anything to happen and he just got out of the relationship with that other girl. But I think i have more feelings for him than he does for me . So basically, the 6 months did nothing for me. He's separating in July and i couldn't be happier for him, but i'm scared of what's going to happen to our friendship. Am i going to be one of those friends that he just happens to see one day after 5 years? Or am i going to be forgotten? I think that if he cares about me as much as he says he does, then we won't have a problem. But then again, Mitch said the same things. I shouldn't even be comparing Roland to Mitch because they are two competely different people! But that's what i'm thinking right now, and my hands are just typing out what is going on in my head. Rob is in the desert until August. He left in January and I miss him! Mostly because i moved out of my old house into a new one that was closer to his (like 6 minutes walking distance) and i was used to him coming over and watching movies with me and walking to the pizza place. I miss him terribly. Jenn is officially out of the military and as i write this, she is in Cairo on vacation before she returnes home. So all in all, my best gal-friend is leaving, my best man friend is leaving soon and the second man friend isn't here. Roland is busy doing whatever it is he does, and has a new dog, Zoe. And it doesn't help that i don't have weekends off because that's the only time that he is remotely free. So, i've been venturing out! I've been watching a lot of movies. I've gotten hooked on Sex and the City. Scratchy had kittens in September and i kept one of the kittens! She's a handful. I'm taking some ballroom classes. I'm starting out with Tango and then when i get really good at that, i'll try the others. I've put singing on the side for now because it was becoming boring and i needed change. I was really into my guitar, but then i kept getting my hands hurt at work and then they would bleed when i tried to play...yuck! Roland even bought me a little kid guitar. Which is easier for me to play because i have short arms! I've decided to put my dating on the backburner for now considering that i'm still trying to fall out of love with Roland and into the friendship kind of love. It's working so far, it's just taking some time. Plus, it's not like guys are pounding down my door to date me! Everyone at work gives me a hard time about it because i'm not "getting any" (i work with a lot of guys) but it doesn't bother me. I'm usually the one making fun of myself in that department. I'm just trying to reinvent myself because everything else is changing, i feel like i have to change too. The only thing that is reluctant to change is my job, which is still shitty, but hey what can i do ya know?